The Repercussions of Severe Child Neglect

The Repercussions of Severe Child Neglect

Child neglect and abuse often go hand in hand. What makes severe child neglect stand out, though, is that it hijacks the development of your identity and sense of self. With abuse, you still have a reference point as to who you are and “that” you are, even if that is through negative attention. With severe neglect that reference is missing.

In childhood, your brain and nervous system are busy laying down neural pathways. You are dependent on your environment for stimulus to promote that growth of the neural pathways in your brain and nervous system. When there is a lack of input and stimulus, that translates into stunted growth in those areas.

Child Development and How We Learn From Others

Through mirroring, copying, imitating, identifying, reacting, and parental affect regulation you slowly learn to find your way in life. When you have laid an emotional foundation, you can then further start to explore your likes and dislikes, what you are attracted to and what repulses you, and what will be your direction in life.

When you grow up with an absence of reference or example in your early years, that emotional foundation, on the whole, is missing. This is more so the case with neglect than abuse; with abuse you still, through reaction, establish a sense of self. With severe child neglect, often that is missing.

As a result of severe neglect, your need to feel validated, recognized, or accepted in life will mostly be directed outward onto others. That very search for validation is an attempt to compensate for the void that you feel inside yourself, which came into being through neglect, and which is an attempt to find some sense of meaning in your existence.

From there on it can become gridlocked into a habitual pattern of continually trying to please others while being met by further rejection or even abuse, thereby making you crave more attention, recognition, and meaning in your life.

The mechanism of continually searching outside of yourself for validation and acceptance can make you very vulnerable to further abuse.

Severe Child Neglect, Complex Trauma, and Looking at Ways to Heal CPTSD

I am aware this description makes child neglect and its repercussions into adulthood look very bleak, but for many, this is a reality.

Let us explore together what possibly can be done to work with neglect and abandonment and see if there is any hope.

As an exercise, can you start with feeling into the pleasing and searching for recognition part of yourself? Can you track what it does to your energy, how it pulls you outside of yourself, and how you become invested in anticipating someone else’s reaction? Now hold yourself there for a moment without judging yourself and without trying to change that pattern. Notice the compulsion and the habit of it without letting further thoughts come in. Stay with feeling the pleasing part of yourself and how it increases your anxiety because of your focus outward and the disconnection from your body.

Try now to shift your attention back to your own body for a moment by following your breathing for a few cycles and see what that does for you. By being attentive to and questioning this hardwired pleasing and searching for validation pattern, you create a little space for change by making the pattern a little less hardwired. In time, and with practice, you will find that you are able to see the difference that makes for you.

When you shift your awareness to your body and your breathing, you help regulate the anxiety and activation around this pattern. That is the first step.

Once you have done this a for a few cycles and can do it, can you from there feel into the pleasing once more, but without projecting it or relating it to anyone or anything in your life right now? Allow yourself to “hold” that pleasing state and ask yourself: “What is the underlying feeling that makes me channel my energy into pleasing and constantly searching for recognition, validation, and acceptance?”

The identity of the underlying feeling is the big question to ask, as it will connect you to the pain and void within you, which are related directly to the neglect and abandonment you suffered.

You will have to go slowly and carefully here because if you dive in too deeply, too quickly, you will drown in that pain and from there dissociate again. So you have to go slowly! Whenever you start to feel that pain surfacing as you listen to the pleasing part of yourself, you will have to measure for yourself how much of what comes up in that moment you can safely hold. When you reach your threshold, go back to your breathing and assist yourself to regulate yourself. If you have gone a little over your limit and feel activated, go for a walk and come back to doing this work when you feel more contained again.

If you feel incapable of doing this on your own, you should reach out for help and engage in this process with a skilled therapist who can guide you through it.

Let me know your thoughts on this topic, and how you get along with this exercise below in the comments.

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Comments

  1. Summer  April 23, 2018

    See- now THIS- actual “directions”, for lack of a better term at the moment, is EXACTLY what so many of us need; I know I did and do! Many of us comprehend what we need to do to even touch the beginning of the healing process- but putting a “verb” into it- this is precisely what is missing- what is keeping many of us stagnant in hopelessness for even SOME sort of recovery.
    Thank you, Roland. More like this, please!

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    • Roland  April 23, 2018

      Excellent. I’ll keep them coming.

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  2. Rikko  April 23, 2018

    Another excellent article Roland.

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  3. Snezana  April 23, 2018

    Thank you, thank you. So useful 🙏

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  4. Sherry  April 23, 2018

    I feel like I am really suffering with resurfacing physical pain, dreams that trigger me and I don’t even remember. I have been working with a counselor but feel I need someone really versed in the trauma I endured, alone all through my birth and childhood.

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    • Roland  April 23, 2018

      Hi Sherry. Please get in touch with me by message/email and I can put you in touch with a therapist well versed in trauma.

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  5. Julie  April 23, 2018

    It did help. Anchoring, and subtle. Thanks.

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  6. Andyou  April 23, 2018

    Well, well….Greetings to my wounded healer and my need to be needed which underpins many a fellow doctor’s, nurse’s and healer’s zeitgeist. Hugely painful to recognise and embrace with a loving hug, so much easier to keep on truckin’. Too busy looking after others to have time to look after myself fandango..until I consciously (v.v.v rare) or subconsciously (that was an accident, right?- that illness, fracture, headache,etc) create space to ‘be’ and reconsider, reconnect, reframe and readjust my members through remembering. The paradox of it being more familiar and ‘normal’ doing a ‘human doing’ than the being a human being which was almost directly taught out of me as being wrong throughout my upbringing, schooling and medical training. No revolutionary has been quite as rebellious and strong minded, nor successful as it appears to have been necessary to be to regain me, myself and I.
    Note to self- thank you for being non-conformisticly ‘an archos’ and self agape loving! Yipeeee that pain!!!
    Thank you Roland and all blessings to you mate!

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  7. Joanne  April 23, 2018

    The crucial difference between abuse and neglect is clearly evoked by Roland. I have forever lived without a sense of self .. and have always known in my whole body that something huge was wrong with me. I had experienced childhood sexual abuse, but in spite of my perpetual cyclic encounters with the mental health system, I felt hollow and unable to function in talking therapies. This added to my sense of self loathing. Although childhood sexual abuse frightened me, it was nowhere near as debilitating or hyper overwhelming as my underlying everyday body .. as a child and as a ‘child adult’. Thank you Roland and all who kindly post here.

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    • Summer  April 23, 2018

      Brightest, warmest blessings to you. You’re not alone, my friend.

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  8. Louise  April 24, 2018

    Just wow. Thanks Roland. I now know I am “normal”…;-) .I instinktively did a lot you describe…and finding yoga and Meditation in my 30s helped a lot…
    So happy to say that anxiety doesnt overpower me anymore ….to all my buddies…you are not alone!

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  9. Simone  April 24, 2018

    Wow! This is me!! I wish that I could find a therapist that gets it!! This article checks all the boxes AND give directions to heal!! I’m grateful that I found this site!

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