The Identity of PTSD
Depression is one of the leading mental illnesses of our times, although only 10% of those seek active help. I would say in most cases, depression is directly linked to Trauma and PTSD. Ten percent really isn’t that much.
Post-Traumatic Stress has been around for eons; it is not something new; however there still seems to be a taboo, denial or non-acceptability around it, both on the individual and the collective level. Admitting that one needs help on an emotional and mental level is a big step to make. Making that first step and setting the intention to heal, is the catalyst to the whole process of finding a sense of peace once more in oneself.
So why then is it so difficult to do?
Dissociation in Mental Illness and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
When we go through trauma we disconnect from part of ourselves. We give up a sense of our integrity in order to survive; in order to deal with the overwhelming surge that floods our bodies and minds. To be overwhelmed, by an incidental or developmental trauma, is when you are out of control and in a state of helpless vulnerability. That is your first step in disconnecting from integrity. The emotions that follow from there, as an attempt to deal with this overwhelming force, are anger, fear, sadness, grief, guilt and shame, blame, self-reproach, and quite often, a mixture of all these.
Trauma disconnects us from an integrated sense of self. It is a splitting of one’s identity also called dissociation. On a corresponding physical and energetic level, it is referred to as a trauma vortex in therapies Somatic Experiencing and an energy cyst in Somato Emotional Release.
When a state of disconnection and Post-Traumatic Stress persists, the dis-connective state becomes an identity unto itself and thereby becomes very difficult to move out of and away from. The fear of reconnecting, by working through the trauma and addressing the overwhelming helplessness, also crucially means the dying of the ‘trauma- identity’. We therefore, rather tend to prefer staying with the familiarity of the known, even if it is painful and destructive, than face the unknown and potential healing.
Let me put forward an example by which to clarify this:
The Ramifications of Developmental Trauma and Developmental Trauma Disorder
Carry’s parents split up when she was just two years old and has, since then, lived with her mother. As her parents were not on good terms she hardly saw her dad who, by then, also happened to have moved far away. In her current life as an adult she has had trouble maintaining steady personal relationships. She falls very easily in love and is prone to getting attached. The loving and attachment comes with a fair amount of possessiveness and jealousy, out of a fear of losing that person which is what tends to happen in the end. Carry is convinced that finding the perfect partner will solve her problems and sees most men as being non-committal.
This is a classic example of a developmental issue. Carry’s initial trauma of abandonment and loss fuels emotions of fear and attachment. In her attempt to fill up the gap of trauma she projects it outwardly in trying to find the perfect partner. However the dynamics of the relationship are still based on a past traumatic tragedy which sets her up for a re-enactment of her initial trauma, on an emotional level. Blaming men for being unreliable keeps her ‘trauma-identity’ alive.
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