PTSD Depression and the Various Levels of Dissociation

PTSD Depression and the Various Levels of Dissociation

When suffering (C)PTSD, depression is going to show up somewhere down the line. It is one of those symptoms that is almost always present with a post-traumatic state.

It is important to realize that a depressive state is both a symptom and an effect of post-trauma, and is often perceived and treated as a stand-alone mental/emotional illness.

The Nervous System Responses and Depression as a PTSD Symptom

There are various ways of looking at depression when examining the symptoms of PTSD.

While going through trauma, your adrenals and nervous system get geared up for survival into fight or flight mode. Once the traumatic experience or episode has passed, your circumstance or personal mindset may not have been sufficiently capable of integrating and containing that high nervous system and emotional energy charge, and, as a result, you remain stuck at “ON.”

Over time, you run out of energy resources. You will start to get allergies and have a sensitivity to various foods; also, the possibility of asthma attacks, chronic pain, hormonal imbalances, and a break down of the immune system.

From being stuck at “ON” for too long, you will eventually flip over and get stuck at “OFF.”

Your energy freezes and becomes dormant. From a state of being hyperactive and continuously on the alert, you move into a dissociated state where you feel numb and depressed.

When you are hyperactive, the sympathetic branch of your nervous system is running on overtime. Now the parasympathetic branch of your nervous system is in overdrive. And this can result in lethargy, depression, low blood pressure, constipation and other digestive issues – to name but a few.

Furthermore, you will move between those two states of; hyper-activation (ON) and hypo-activation (OFF) and along with that, the emotional responses.

PTSD Depression Symptoms from a Dissociation Perspective

Depression acts as a safety valve, after having been hyperactive for a more extended period.

It is, unfortunately, also where you can remain stagnant and immobilized for too long.

Although, however, “yucky” a PTSD depressive state feels, it can, and often is a preferable state to be in, compared with feeling too much continuous emotion.

It is not that you don’t have energy, and therefore are depressed. It is the other way around – in that your energy is invested in being in a depressed state, consciously or unconsciously – to survive.

Once you become aware of PTSD depression from this perspective, it renders that state more accessibly fluid, and perhaps gives back a sense of control, as opposed to being a victim of depression, to working through it.

How to Possible work Through PTSD and Depression

You either fully identify with depression and dwell in it, or fight it to stave it off for some time; but whenever you lose hold of your vigilance you might just slip back into it.

Having read the above, and knowing that depression follows suit after anxiety or any another emotional activator, let us see if we can listen to that numbness, that tiredness, lethargy, depression, and disconnection without reacting to it.

To be attentive to it, so that the energy from the depressed state slowly starts to move back into awareness and observation.

What will happen is, that while you do that, you will start to feel more ‘your familiar self’ again and will notice that emotional activation, which preceded the depressed state. It often is anxiety, but it could be any other emotion for you.

Go gently back and forth between connecting and disconnecting with it and, as you did with depression, do the same with this emotional state that you encounter. Can you listen to it, hold it, not allow yourself to go into thoughts and memories of it, but coming back to the feelings which are presenting themselves.

Working with emotions will be a continuing process of moving back and forth, between negating thoughts of blame, shame, self-reproach, allowing oneself to be vulnerable and to feel through the different layers of emotional residue.

Through attention to these hyper– and hypo responses of the nervous system, the emotional residue is being transformed into resilience and awareness. There is no other way around it, but to go directly through it!

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  1. Nancy  November 1, 2017

    This is so true and I’m in the building resilience phase (Yay!)! After literally years of lethargy and apathy and hating every minute of it I finally thought to myself perhaps this is my new normal and I need to accept it. When I stopped judging the lethargy as bad and started to just allow it, I finally turned a corner. I am feeling somewhat like my old self again! Starting to find things to be interested in and having the motivation and energy to participate in them (hiking lately).

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    • Roland  November 1, 2017

      That’s great to hear Nancy.

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  2. stephen  November 1, 2017

    Thank you so much for your post . So important to understand the dynamics of our depression .Fighting it doesnt work . Excepting and observing takes the edge off . I must say that I must be left alone to understand this and try to get in the middle of the boat and i do spend sometime in Hypo-Activation.Thats life and if im left to go through it and talk myself through it .Im fine .Really appreciate your post .Great to be given insight .

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    • Roland  November 1, 2017

      Hi Stephen. Good to have you here and to hear that this post was helpful to you.

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  3. Lorraine  November 1, 2017

    Thanks Roland

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  4. Petra  December 2, 2017

    These are very interesting thoughts and for me a new way to see it. Thank you for sharing. It seems to me like a good way to process “the unspeakable” ..

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    • Yannick  February 14, 2018

      Wow! I have had lots of EMDR therapy, read
      Books and articles and NO ONE has ever mentioned the reason the body goes into a depression!! Although I am over the hump, this mystery is now solved with this short blog post. Thank you so much.

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  5. Pauline  December 29, 2017

    How does the neglectful parent , who is also a victim in the cycle heal herself and her kids post separation when abuse escalates? It seems the supposed neglectful parent can be targeted through the children harming them more. Struggling to cope with guilt versus over compensating for marrying an abusive person is a huge role while trying to deal with ones own mental health as well as that of the children.

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    • Roland  December 30, 2017

      Thanks for your comment. It is by learning to set boundaries that one’s self-worth increases, guilt decreases and anxiety is faced.

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  6. Shirley  January 10, 2018

    Wow my psychology degree never taught me this but it makes a lot of sense – thank you.

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  7. Mary  January 16, 2018

    Roland,
    I’d like to first thank you for writing this insightful blog. I don’t know what your credentials are, but I will definitely be trying to look up info on you and and books I can get in paper (hard) copy, or articles I can download to my Kindle.
    Long story…..I’ll shorten it. Buried three of my children. The last one in the most unspeakable way a parent can lose a child, almost 15 years ago. Divorced in the last year and now unable to work. Unbelievable pain every day, now diagnosed with RA, Raynauds Phenomena, OCD, Anxiety, Depression, ADHD & ADD & Insomnia. I have, what I think are very well trained, experienced, compassionate and sometimes confused as to the best treatment for my symptoms (because it is difficult to know which is aggravating/causing the other)- psychologist & psychiatrist.

    Your blog gives feedback to what they have stated many times!

    Something clicked after reading this!! THIS IS ME!! THIS IS MY LIFE!!! I AM STUCK! I saw a psychologist about six months ago who did “sand therapy” with me and I was horrified by what I saw in the way of self perception….. I please EVERYONE else before myself. (Did I mention my abusive childhood?) In summary, I was told the front part of my brain had been badly damaged by the amount of time I have been in this “state of mind.”

    I will be looking up/downloading/purchasing some of your work. I’d like your opinion on where I should start…… Anywhere? Something specific? Thank you!
    Mary

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  8. Sara  January 20, 2018

    On/off

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  9. Sara  January 20, 2018

    Is it possible that you can be ON and OFF In different contexts in your life? I feel I am ON at work and OFF outside of work, I work in trauma informed environment have to work really hard around transference due to still being in journey in my own recovery, when out of work find hard to get out of bed or even leave house, am looking at going back into therapy again but was thinking about these trauma responses in terms of my own work/ home life

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  10. Ruth  February 1, 2018

    Hi, Roland – and thank you. I am living with c-ptsd for over 20 years now, and ended up getting a diagnosis of cronic fatigue, with ptsd on the side that occationally (frequently) reactivates. I suppose I am one of many that are misdiagnosed this way. After reading your blog here, I had a good revelation. I do have questions that I am not comfortable asking here. Can I send you a mail with my one big question? I am ok with it if you feel the need to protect your privacy, and will still follow this blog 🙂 Have a nice day!

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    • Roland  February 1, 2018

      Hi Ruth. Thanks for your message. Unfortunately, PTSD starts impacting body and mind across the spectrum and chronic fatigue is a common symptom of post-trauma. Please do write me a private message.

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  11. Terry Wall  March 10, 2018

    Hello looking for support and advice I am strongly coming to believe that my ptsd is co morbid with borderline personality disorder

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