Dealing with PTSD Recovery as a Process
As much as you might want to, you can’t push for recovery from PTSD. There is a natural readiness to deal with the emotional residue and symptoms of PTSD and CPTSD, that often becomes available only when you have sorted out some of your basic securities.
In other words; your direct environment, and the people you interact with are not compromising your physical safety. You might still project danger onto situations and other people, and relive past episodes. But that is very different from being still in harms way.
There are many factors which make dealing with PTSD recovery possible, or become severe obstacles towards recovery. Equally so, there are a number of misconceptions of what recovery from PTSD or CPTSD constitutes.
Setting that Intention to Heal PTSD and CPTSD and having Healthy Expectation
Setting that intention to heal no matter what, is crucial to moving out of limiting situations and putting oneself before others in order to heal.
You will probably have to go through and attend different meetings, therapies and modalities that will somehow help you but also, in a way, frustrate you as you may not feel fully understood according your symptoms of PTSD or CPTSD condition.
This forms part of your recovery process; to find out what works and what doesn’t, but also to learn and get feedback from yourself about your own symptoms and coping patterns. In the end you are really your own healer, and it is others that reflect back you present states of mind. Once you start clearing up more about yourself on a cognitive, somatic and emotional level, you will also start to meet more capable people.
You can only work and resonate with those that are somewhat nearer to your own understanding and level of functioning.
Take all of this in your stride; don’t stay put, and don’t give up!
What really Constitutes Recovery and Healing from PTSD and CPTSD
You want to forget it all; be done with and overcome it; get rid of it, cut it out – if possible, banish it. But all this is not going to work. Never! You might feel successful for a while, but all those actions are still part of fragmentation and dissociation and fragmentation plus dissociation will never constitute a recovery.
That said; not wanting to face the pain and suffering viscerally, are normal reactions. They are what has kept you safe and somehow functioning during and after trauma.
To start the healing process entails coming closer to the wound with gentle care; bit by bit. Being able to contain and process the emotional residue still present in the nervous system, body-tissues and deeper parts of the mind.
And this is a process. It is a movement between going carefully into activation and building up enough resilience to stay with what is, without drowning in the activation, nor escaping further from it.
Recovery and Healing from PTSD and CPTSD as a Process
Doing therapeutic work, either by oneself and/or with others, is certainly not straightforward. You will have breakthroughs and setbacks. You will fall back into old patterns at times, thinking that you will never get through this. And there will be other times when you start to feel normal, having your zest for life back again.
Healing from PTSD and CPTSD can be a bumpy ride. Although, as you are learning and progressing in your process, you will start to notice that through the triggers and their duration, falling back into old emotional patterns will start to lessen, and you will surface quicker.
Some deeply engraved patterns might always be there; or when going through some stress, could get reactivated. This is a reality, especially with patterns that have been initiated in childhood.
Because those patterns are still there, doesn’t mean that you have not recovered from PTSD or CPTSD.
It is really not about getting rid of old patterns. It is about not encouraging those patterns with new emotional involvement. And when that does happen, under stress, to move out of it with the skill sets you have learnt through effective therapy.
Where are you in your process? Leave you comment below.